Musings: My ethnicity


Throughout my childhood, I've been spending nearly a quarter of it indulging myself in Filipino overly-melodramatic series and films. Like many other asian dramas, in my opinion, they are cringe-worthy, too dramatic and very cheesy and each and everyone that I've watched so far all have similar storylines, characters and overall theme which, in general, sheds an obvious light to the divisions between rich and poor.

Not only that, but I also want to point out the portrayal of SE asians in Western shows and films as well; I either have never seen them on screen, they are portrayed as cleaners, maids, servants, waiters or something fairly low-skilled or service type jobs or, in a woman's case, they are seen as simply "the housewife of the rich white husband" or a nanny. I also find that they're often represented as lower/working class, living in benefits or in tiny houses with children and little money. From the top of my head, a classic example is a Sean Ellis film Metro Manila in which it's about a family from the rural countryside who move into the city of Metro Manila for a better life. To some extent, his depiction of this brutal city in the Philippines is somewhat true: the difficulty of finding a job, cheap accommodation and the type of work they're forced to do especially for someone from the countryside. However, it is slightly exaggerated. Women do not always get abducted in broad daylight in a busy road, not every family or individual person is homeless and the people are not that cynical.

I love how the movie depicts the realities of living in the Philippines which, as I said to some extent, is true because of the corrupt government. I don't love is how it reinforces the ideology that it is a corrupt and third-world country with lower-class people.

As a south east asian, what irritates me sometimes is how some people see my home country only as a third-world country: it is in fact more than that. My country is extremely popular in terms of tourism because of its natural beauty, the tropical weather and the rich culture and history and the english-speaking filipinos. It is not just a country who produces our nurses, makes our clothes, our food, etc.

Another great example is Bata, Bata... Pa'no ka Ginawa? which depicts the roles of a woman in the Philippines.

As a young individual who's willing to change society and impact the world, I want to change this perception because I'm just tired of being constantly marginalised, unrecognised and feeling invisible to society and the media. To be able to do that from where I'm currently at, I'm going to open your minds a bit with this post to make you all realise and see what's outside the 'sphere of races'.

Of course, I understand that Black Lives Matter is a very important movement into achieving equality between the races, but we also need to consider southeast asians because, like black people, they also face racism, discrimination and prejudice but just not in a way that that would bring immediate attention. That also leads me into another point: I think the reasons for Black Lives Matter becoming so widely recognised now is due to the recent issues on the news relating to police brutality and racial profiling (such examples are here). We shouldn't need to be reminded of this continuous problem through the violence that we see on the news. It's the 21st Century so it should be integrated in our minds already. We should be thinking about it immediately. About how unequal society is.

I know that I've kind of drifted off topic, but it sort of relates to what I'm trying to say on this post. I don't want to keep reminding people that this world is still unequal and as generation Z individuals, we need to take action or at least recognise the problems and raise awareness of it to make the world more equal, peaceful and open-minded.

Thank you for reading this, something that my family and I and people of our community are affected by and something that I feel passionate about.

Proud Filipinas

Nicole ᵔᴥᵔ

Sorry for the late post ':D

Artistic Lines: She (Poems and Haikus)


She swims the seas with
such power and force, like how
a mule pulls a cart.


She looked up at the sky
and wondered when she will fly
away from her bad dreams.


She held the rose in
her hand as her blood rolled


She looks like a rose,
she smells like a rose,
and stings like a rose.


He held her
like a flower,
but always kept her
in his pocket.


I hope one day, I'll
see you at the end of the
tunnel smiling joy.


"What makes me happy?"
she wondered as she took a
sip of her vodka.


The prying eyes
of a private mind,
she looks at people
with such curiosity as
intense as the sun, yet
her eyes were like cold
water, that stung your skin
like fire.
She can power a tornado of thoughts with
just one look that 
pulls you into
deep desire.

These are just a small collection of poems I wrote when I was up late at night when I couldn't sleep. Although some of these poems are quite personal to me I want to share my passion for writing and how I express myself, which is not just through fine art. :)

I'm currently working on a visual diary in which I'll show you guys soon :D
And from now on, I'll try to stick to a scheduled time to post which will be every Friday or Saturday!

I hope you like these poems as much as I liked writing them!

x nicole ᵔᴥᵔ
nicole isabel